I can't believe I am doing this!

I knew I had something valuable to share. Something I shouldn’t, something I couldn’t keep to myself. Somehow the best way I came up with to share my thoughts was by blogging.

I’m intimidated by Failure.

But here’s the catch, here’s why I can’t believe I am actually blogging. I grew up thinking I couldn’t write all because I once failed a silly English Language exam and a series of spelling tests. As a result, I let myself be continuously intimidated by the fear of failure. This failure had prevented me from finding my voice for many years.

My mother was my S-Hero

A significant problem I had was a constant need to seek my mother's approval. With her motivational stories ranging from how she was a consistent A* student, to how she pushed through all difficulties and obstacles in her life to rise up like a phoenix (I'm a little creative here), I wanted to be just like her, but I always seemed to fall short.

My dream was to defend

My mother is a fantastic lawyer full of integrity. She always seems to make the right decisions, and I wanted to be like her in that respect. She is a strong female who to me never seemed to request or need permission from anyone to be or speak her mind. Naturally, I wanted to be a lawyer. As I didn’t really know what lawyers did, I feel my knowledge gaps with scenes from ‘Judging Amy’, ‘Ally McBeal’ and the ‘Legally Blonde movies’ which I watched as a child. My dream was to defend the innocent and fight against injustice all the while, making a name for myself in legal circles dresses in the confidence of whoever the female version of ‘Harvey Specter’ from the TV show Suits would be. Anyway, my dreams would remain just that… dreams!

Fear of Failure = Fear of Success

Writing scared me and starting a successful blog was a frightening thought. But I realised the measure to which I was afraid to fail was the same measure to which I was afraid to succeed. I had many flaws which would come to light if I blogged. Flaws I had hidden and refused to work on because I rebelliously felt they were part of what made me unique.

Such as

• My daily battle with timekeeping and procrastination.

• My inability to follow-through consistently long enough to actualise my goals

• My poor grammar (I ask for your forgiveness in advance)

And some other deep-rooted inadequacies such as my unrealistic need to always have all my ducks in a row. To have a clear road map or path of action before taking the first step which eventually means I spend all my time thinking, researching and waiting for the right time to do anything.

It’s MY Ego

Why do I do this? Well, the simple answer is that it’s because of YOU. I want to impress you, and I am scared you will laugh at me. However, the truth is that it’s because of ME. Because I have this enormous ego chained to my leg that I keep dragging about with me. It holds me back of being selfless and keeps me self-centered.

I know I have something valuable to share which might help someone you know. My reason for being surely has to be higher than this humongous ego of mine. So I have decided to be brave and step out from hiding my words within the pages of my hardback notebook.

Time to be better

So here I go, taking a chance on myself and sharing with you my views on personal finance in the hope we both learn and grow together to become better versions of ourselves.

Many things you would have heard before, but if you haven’t taken any action then maybe that’s why we are both here right now. Perhaps you just need to hear it one more time and share what you learn with a friend. Other things may be entirely new just as they were for me when I made the decision to start this blog and share my insights with you. Either way, we learn by sharing, so please leave a comment and share your thoughts. Let’s make each other better.

Elizabeth

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